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Date / Time : Tuesday, February 9, 2010 / 11:18:00 PM
i failed , really failed badly.
we are not okay, we are not , really not.
things is really getting worst each day.
i have no mood.
cause he broke the neck let , that meant alot to me.
i was totally disappointed . i swear i felt the pain .
hurt HURT HURT .
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i cant go any further then
this I WANT YOU BADLY
its my biggest wish.
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please god, i swear i was wrong in the first place
but am really deserve this,
being share , being left alone ?
currently feeling is really in a messed.
he dont text me, he dont even bother
he dont but rather meeting her and solve things.
who am i really to him.
seeing the broken necklet , i feel like crying again.
serious.
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i tried but why must thing turn out to be like this .
in life being compare is the worst feeling i ever had.
i just hope he will text me or even a call.
cause most of the time, a text and a called can meant alot to me. .
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it might be a nightmare.
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Date / Time : Sunday, February 7, 2010 / 2:42:00 AM
i realise i was wrong , really wrong.
i cant force love, i got to admit. if it is there ,
you have to do everything just to protect it.
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i seriously im really wrong
sigh :/
im sorry .
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Date / Time : Friday, February 5, 2010 / 2:29:00 AM
my body isnt perfect
i dont walk with confidence
i get into fights with my friends and even family
some nights i rather be by myself than out partying
i cry over the smallest things sometimes
there are days that i get through with forced smiles and fakes laughter
sometimes i try to convince myself saying that thing are alright when they are not
im not ugly but im not beautiful
there are some nights that i cried myself to sleep
i constantly thinked im not good enough
im imprefect but im prefectly me
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I LOVE YOU !
mean that i accept you from a person who you are
and i dont wish to change you into someone else
it mean that i will love you and stand by you even through the worst of time
it means loving you when you are in a bad mood or too tired
to do things that i want to do
it mean loving you when you were down
not just when you are fun to be with
i love you mean i know your deepest secrets and
do not judge you from them
asking for return only that you dont judge me from mine.
it mean i care enough to fight for what we have and
that i love you enough not to let you go
it mean i will be okay when im with you,
LOVING YOU MEAN STANDING BY YOU !
even when you are ripping my heart piece by piece.
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Date / Time : / 12:32:00 AM
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Date / Time : Thursday, February 4, 2010 / 2:09:00 PM
I'm sick , LOVESICK
i can see exactly where i want to be
i just cant see how i will ever get there.
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i know somehow he might not be reading it.
but looked I'm totally heartbroken,
you might think ed it alright saying those word to me but
do remember my heart still have heart beat.
losing me in your life for you seen okay and easy
but i want to say if you don't need and want thing to work out anymore
please stop hurting my feeling.
it hurtful and painful.
I'm sorry,
nobody is perfect in this world
i thought you would be someone different in my life but i was wrong
yes. i admit i hurt you but i have the courage to change and learn from my mistake.
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maybe maybe it time to stop all this.
i had enough of fighting with you ,
i GIVE UP I GIVE UP !
我爱你，可是我不可以拥有你。
对不起.
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Date / Time : / 12:56:00 AM
hurt HURT hurt , VERY HURT !you say you dont care losing me, am so hurt and upset after reading this. sometime you make me happy cause from yesterday , i can feel you really need and want me, but from the text you text me you are lying. ;i gave you my feeling, my everything to you
but you screwed me over making me feel so weak .
sometime i wish, i could sleep and no longer wake up again.
i'm really feeling down.
worst feeling, dropping tears couldnt helped but it the way how i cool myself down.
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I WANT YOU , ONLY YOU ! OPEN UR HEART UR EYES AND SEE.
FEEL IT AND SEE !!!!!
trust and believe is what we need to gain back .
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Date / Time : Wednesday, February 3, 2010 / 12:52:00 AM
you are wrong, i need you the most .
Everytime i close my eyes, all i see is only you .
i need you to be beside me always ;
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your eyes
your smile, your teeth
that face you show me after you kiss me
when you put your hand on my back of my head to kiss me
waking up to text from you, because i always fall asleep
that you stay awake when you know i cant sleep
that you hold me under ur arm to make me sleep
that you cant get enough over me
that you cant keep your hand off over me
when you tell me how much you love me
the sound of your voice
that you called me your princess
that you have bought me along to so many place
that you celebrate my birthday with me
that you have seen so much more than i have
how much you make me laugh
how protective you are over me
when you get upset when i hurt you
your body
that you been through so much,i think that this make you stronger
how much i want you all the time
how much you want me all the time
the way you touch and feel me
the way you taste me
the way you hugs me
the way you ride your bike
the everything all about you .. really
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i love the moment that i spend with you , i cant get enough over with you
and i dont want to get enough of you ever.
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i realise i was wrong. i know somehow he just dont understand how i feel
but im really touch by him yesterday.
a big thanks to you ! apperciate his doing toward me
i love him even more :D each day my love for him grow bigger and bigger.
it just you , and you
muhammad shafiq bin azam
24sept2009
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BECAUSE I STILL CARE .
