/ Wednesday, December 2, 2009
It doesn't mean get back, will give you the same happiness.
Neither does it mean patching back, will give you the same love you once used to have.
This makes me think a lot, i couldn't even sleep and eat properly.
What's more, even if we still love one another. We can still date and hold on to each other.
But it's just that we can have no status, no possession of you or me.
Okay, is this how it's defined ? Okay, love is just that complicated.
So what if you even go by how you feel.
You won't get what you want either because NOTHING goes smoothly through the way.
It's retarded by how you just feel because you dont think either!
From what i'm saying now, he wouldnt understand it .

LOVE IS JUST A NIGHTMARE TO ME ;(
what should i do ? i need advise.

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Life still goes on, it be 2 days he been ignoring me.
i feel so weak now, just feel like giving up and collapsed anytime.
i hope he is doing real fine.
& listen up to that BITCH ZIMA! i DONT GIVE A DAMN TO YOU, WHETHER YOU HAVING A CHILD OF HIS BUT YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO INTERFERE ABOUT US.
SO PLEASE STAY AWAY, YOU CAN BE CHEAP BUT WHO CARE. I DONT CARE AND GIVE THE HELL OF WHO THE ASS YOU ARE. .
anyways, i really dont know what is wrong now.
nevermind!

tomorrow would be a better day ! (:

been busying working on both weekdays and weekend.
didnt have time to spend with my dear peer and friends. feeling stress up but 24hrs just goes by the same speed. it wouldnt be fast or slow each time. anyway, i meet up with VANESSALHX just now. had talked with her, while im texting him and waited for his reply .
really thanks alot for being there for me. :D

2009 is going to say goodbye in another 29days.
and which mean my birthday is coming too (:
wohoo !!! .

im just trying to forget everything
but i really cant. sight! cheer !!!

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/ Thursday, November 26, 2009
it thursday (:
and it been the second day we didnt have any quarrel.
i hope we still in this way. i really hope soo !
imiss my baby :( muhdshafiq where have you been ?
yesterday, he have the heart to meet me up in town and we caught
our very first movie (: there wld be more more. i miss the day we have lot of fun
beside the unhappiness we had.

& tomorrow will be meeting my dear thiviya for a shopping trip.
she going to buy some stuff but im not buying anything as i dont have extra cash for that.
hmm, right now chatting with alicia and thiviya on msn .
THIVIYA YOU DONT ANGRY ALRIGHT (: CHEER !!!

and my hair is dye now.
hopefully the colour turn out . while waiting for baby to come meet me (:
okay, it a short working week for me, but im going to stop worked due to some reason but nevermind , i would be fine.
sorry for the boring words. there no picture taken this few day.
will post some photo tomorrow (:

cheer !!

im in love with you !!! :D
just you !!

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/ Tuesday, November 24, 2009
let me have a proper update.
where should i start from , it been a month since i have update my blog.
& i must say the stressful O LEVEL'S is over.
*clapclap* all the hard work will pay off when we received our result next year.
& our prom night was on the 16nov2009
had fun and it wld be the last year i would be in
woodlands secondary school .
after prom , we went to cash studio
which is opposite hard rock cafe. sing till the max.!
and cab home and slpt late.

more photo is in FACEBOOK
do check out for more.
17nov-19nov2009
it ngee ann poly red camp !
had fun this days, with knowing the people ther.
:D
no photo taken as somthing just spoilt my mood.

& currently been started to work.
and i didnt turn up for work today,due to i slpt at 5am
and having a bad headache when i wake up .
shall go work tmr.
& yesterday
finally have talked to aliciakohshihui.
there lots of misunderstanding around us, but we know we still care
about each other. :D
will meet her up ASAP , she is now currently staying at CCK !
but wouldnt forget AIN & THIVIYA.
they must been busy with their life and we shall meet up soon.
i getting to miss school .
miss the days we in school , having fun and crap.
there many2 thing that i MISSed !
& current mood for now is sad. :(
my feeling is all in the mess .
i dont know where should i go and start all over again.
Sometimes I just got to learn how to let go and love you even more.
Relationships are really weird and awkward. Relationships are also beautiful and meaningful.
So much emotions in it, it’s up to you to choose which one do you want from it.
I realize i was wrong.
I realized that you treasure me so much, in your own ways.
Sometimes it’s hard to keep strong on this statement, but the more you struggle to find the meaning, the harder it gets to understand.
It’s like quick sand, the more you move, the deeper you sink.
Love is best experienced raw.
I love you.
i am really lost !


















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/ Sunday, November 22, 2009
my laptop is finally back !
will blog tmr as it is not 4am in the morning.
bye !

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/ Sunday, October 18, 2009
16 OCTOBER 2009
it like finally im graduate from
woodlands secondary school.
;
i have been with this school for 5years.
every years there is different thing changing in the school.
everything just pass so fast.
i going to miss the days, sitting in the classroom
learning new knowledge, making nonsense lame joke, and especially
my dear classmates :D
;
well, O LEVEL is coming
in less then 7days.
do hope everyone do well and move on to what they wants.
good luck ! cheer.
;
&& enjoys my day with
babies and vanessa to little India.
had fun with them and the stupid lame joke we have on the way back.
and just one thing i need to comment.
people there is super rude, but whatever it is.
it a fun trip overall. :D
last but not least , ended my day with mrshafiq.
went to find him and waited for him to finish work.
;
17OCTOBER2009
HAPPY DEEPAVAIL TO MY DEAR BABYTV :D
and also my dear Hindu friends.
;
i wasted my day today, i woke up late today
and didnt manage to touch my books.
okay, it a must to touch tomorrow:D
;
okay, accompany ain to have an hair cut
then after that walked around at north point
and finally headed to thiviya for celebration.
we are her first friends who came first .
alright, overall we had fun ! i love my them :D
went home after that.




18OCTOBER2009
it now 256am in the morning !
and im still so awake right now.
before i forget
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO MR KOHQIHONG
& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY TEACHER- MR QUEK.
;
alrigh, will be staying at home tomorrow.
not going anywhere unless i have to .
mrshafiq is sick again. sight
had an small arguments again with him , seriously this is just an
misunderstanding. he do know how much i love him
but sometime thing doesn't turn out to be in a good and smooth way.
face the fact and move on .
;
okay, this would probably be my last post .
will be back once i finish my exam , hopefully :D
cheer. ! good night .
bye

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/ Wednesday, October 7, 2009
it only wednesday .
and i know i shouldnt have come here too.
okay, meet up with my dear baby boy today and i hope this poor boy faster get well la.
he have been sick since last week all because of me .
alright, seriously school have become more and more tension.
i dont know why but just one more month , in fact is just a few more weeks.

alright, i know we are difting far apart.
but there is always a reason why i have turned into this way.
not because i wanted to gain anything from anybody but i always feel so left out .!
i always got the feeling that im not fit to be with you guys but
this wasnt the big matter anymore.& i hope everything would be real fine.
alright, no matter what happened , i do hope you guys are happy
and do well in the big O level . cheer :D

shall stop here.
i feeling down again . .

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